I have never been the type of person who wanted or needed to exercise. In fact I despised working out. That is until last year.
Before my double mastectomy I decided that it was important to get my body as healthy and strong as I could. So I started working out on my own and also with a trainer once a week. My body started to change and what I wasn’t expecting and was that my mind and mood started to change as well.
Then surgery day came and my body felt stronger than ever.
After the surgery I had a very long recovery. In fact my body is still recovering.
Working out has literally saved me. With all that is going on in my life exercise and the routine of getting up in the morning and going to the gym has created a source of solace for me. I start my day working through the feelings that I have. Shaking off the doubt, the feeling of unworthiness, the shame that I feel when I look at my body sometimes, and the sadness and anger that otherwise would consume me.
You see…working out has become less about the vanity and more about the psychological effect it has.
I will continue to work out in some form or another probably for the rest of my life because now it is a part of my self care regime.
So if you’re reading this and have been on the fence about starting to work out…give it a try…it can do no harm…in fact it can do only good.